Do you believe in the Law of Attraction?
I do... now, but there was a time in my life when I was I a spiral downturn... and this miraculous story is what convinced me that there's actually something to it.
I wouldn't want to wish the shame and frustration I experienced on anyone, which is why I'm sharing this story with you...
I wouldn't want to wish the shame and frustration I experienced on anyone, which is why I'm sharing this story with you...
There was a time when the happy life with my husband - my best friend at the time - was declining in his alcoholism. Gone were the days when we were working together to improve the house and look forward to family parties and sailing every weekend... Now he was coming home late, yelling at the air, punching his arm through the door, completely ignoring our little girl, and then crashing and sleeping.
I can remember when he slept all day through Christmas...
I can remember when he slept all day through Christmas...
"When will Daddy wake up?" my 4-year daughter asked... "Does Daddy have a present for me?" And in an effort to make her feel better, I lied, "Yes, Daddy had a very special present for you", and gave her the one present left that I had hoped to share with my husband. Of course, he had no part in choosing this particular doll for her present, but funny how it turned out to be her favourite. I knew then that my little girl deserved a better life, but I was only working part time for my Dad. To understand where I'm going with this, I need to back up and tell you first about working for my Dad...
That was still another source of frustration...
I really believed that the $145 weekly pay was the best I could ever do because my Dad needed me and I couldn't bring myself to quit the administrative work I was doing for him.
In desperation, I tried numerous other part-time jobs... many of them the traditional home party deals, most of which would bring in a whopping $25 profit after 4 hours of hard-earned work and travelling at night while my little girl was home missing me.
We also bred puppies for money...
We also bred puppies for money...
But at the time all this was going downhill with my husband's drinking, and the puppies were getting harder to sell. I was so embarrassed to lead the prospective buyers through the area where my passed-out husband lay to get where the puppies were. I had decided to give one to a "friend" who promised to pay later. With anguish and total frustration, I found myself screaming at her at the top of my lungs to collect the payment she had promised. Needless to say, that was the end of our friendship.
My husband's condition was now declining, and his boss's wife kept calling me complaining out his behaviour. Since he worked for a small business and customers were complaining about him, some of his pay checks actually didn't even clear, so the little money I thought I could count on wasn't even there!
He was baker-acted after attempting suicide, and now I was feeling more alone than ever...
I remember saying out loud to myself on the way to visit him, "I just want to die", as tears rolled down my face.
Little did I know at the time of Rhonda Byrne's famous words, "Whatever happens to you in your life, you are attracting that". If someone had told me that at this time in my life, I really would have hit the roof! It was all my husband's fault, right?
That's what I thought at the time, until I learned about the Law of Attraction, and I'll tell you later how that happened...
If you believe in the Law of Attraction, you can see what was happening here.
The more bad stuff was happening, the worse I felt. And the worse I felt, the more bad stuff came down on my like an avalanche!
The more bad stuff was happening, the worse I felt. And the worse I felt, the more bad stuff came down on my like an avalanche!
During the time when my husband was in the hospital for his 2nd suicide attempt, I was watching an emotional show, and crying my eyes out. I had actually seen this movie before and didn't shed a tear, but at this time in my life, anything could make me cry. I happened answered the phone when I was breaking down in tears and at the verge of a nervous breakdown. Embarrassed, I found my explaining the real reason why I was so hysterical, she said calmly, "Oh honey, you should have told me... I'm recovering from the same illness".
Suddenly I didn't feel so alone. Isn't it remarkable how when you're in your down at the bottom of your life, a simple kind word from a friend can turn things around?
I later had to make the gut-wrenching decision to take my daughter and leave. But now what? My daughter was used to me only working part-time, and now I was working full-time and more! But the friendships that came into my life at that time were so healing that I began to feel good.
One friend who called me when I was living in the small cracker-box 1-bedroom apartment said, "You must feel like you're in heaven now!" And, surprisingly, I did! I was so happy and grateful that I wasn't trapped in the situation with bill collectors calling constantly and a drunken repulsive husband to deal with! Even though I was working 24/7 to make ends meet, there was a sense of new found security in myself that now I was in control of my life!
And this "feeling of gratitude" gave me a feeling of security and new found happiness, which transformed my life into a miraculous turnaround...
As the Law of Attraction dictates, things started changing for me all around!
My part-time work for my Dad had been supplemented with a "secretarial business" that wasn't doing very well before I left. But amazingly, once I left and started feeling better about my abilities, customers seemed to just come out of the woodwork. Surprisingly, I wasn't even advertising at the time.. Just one customer after another came to me through word of mouth.
My Mom had cut an ad out of the paper for a full-time job where I applied and got the job...
Even though it only paid $6.50 a hour, I was able to supplement my income easily because my Dad was now one of my secretarial business accounts, with 3 other repeat customers (all of whom just "came out of the woodwork"). After two years, my side business was making me more than my day job! But that little day-job was where I met the man of my dreams who is now my husband.
More on that in a minute, but first let me tell you about my single life with my daughter...
By mixing business with pleasure, I even found time to spend with my daughter, as she was assigned to make my "secretarial deliveries" on her bicycle. I also paid her to help me in my business by putting applying postage stamps on my direct mail pieces. I still found time to lead her Brownie troop and go sailing with her on some weekend days with the little boat I had kept since the divorce.
As we sailed by the mansions in the inter-coastal, my daughter and I would point to specific houses, "that's the one I want when I grow up", she said, "that's the one I'll have one day", I said.
It wasn't until my daughter was grown and introduced me to Rhonda Byrne's "The Secret" that I looked back on all of this and discovered it all made perfect sense...
When things were in a spiral down-turn, they got worse. But when I was able to change my focus to what I was so happy and grateful for, things got better. This knowledge and the story of how the Law of Attraction worked in my life had inspired me to share my miraculous story with others.
I've recently been reading more into Wayne Dyer's writings, too...
And I often think about my favourite quotation from his books, "You get what you think about, whether you want it or not"... and my life continues to prove that phenomenon over and over.
And the ending to my story?
My daughter has discovered how to make money on-line and is able to work from home completely! At the age of 27, she is probably half way to living in one of those mansions she used to point to as a little girl.
And I'm also living in a house I had always dreamed of - a small comfortable house with a fireplace!
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